SARAH!!!

Just wanna say that I'm not gonna miss you one bit.Get out of here already!!!

J/k.. I love you dollbaby!!

I will miss you,but at the same time,I'm not extremely sad.I'm happy for you.Happy that you are finally breaking out of this boring little town and into a great big world where you will do great big things.I'll make sure to send you...idk.lots of chai or something.and if I could send you burger king iced mocha...whatever the heck it is... I would!!and whatever else youre crazy heart desires.

Glad we got to sing together for what will hopefully not be the last time=]

Have fun at Kwanza tonight!Eat some waffles for me!

So this christmas....

...has sucked so far.Trying to look at the positives.Kinda hard when all thats being thrown at you is negative.Just ready for the holidays to be over.Christmas was my favorite time of year.Ever.Now,its the most miserable.Looking back on all the great times I had with people I loved.Times I can never have again.With people I may never see again.And my whole family is miserable and pissed off and taking it out on me.Making it seem(as always)like everything is my fault.I just want to lock myself in this room until school starts again.Who would have ever thought I would look forward to school more than anything?

Here's hoping it will get better later...To anyone reading.If you're reading.Have a Merry Christmas.Hopefully I can have the same..

Omg..

This is ridiculous..I'm not gonna allow my so called "friends" to talk down to me like this.I may have deserved some of it,but not that...I may have hurt him,but he hurt me so much more.

How crazy is it that the people around me who aren't christians are more supportive of those who claim to be...

Holidays..

Holidays are somewhat bittersweet for me.I love the holidays themselves,but I hate what they've become.I hate the way people act around the holidays.The greed,selfishness.Everything.But I suppose there's good and bad to everything...

I can't wait for this summer. I love to travel.I love to just get away from everything.I don't care what anyone says I'm going for as long as I can this summer.Ireland,Paris and London.Belfast too,I suppose.

It was hard for me to be in Ireland without Michaela there.I wonder what it will be like without my uncle..

I keep getting all these end-of-the-year surveys from people.I refuse to answer them.Reminiscing about this past year does not bring me joy.It makes me sick.

I keep saying I can't wait to graduate.But everyone who's out of high school wishes they could go back.So I'm not really sure what I want.

I know I want a change.I want something good to happen instead of all the crap that's been happening.I want my efforts to be worth something. I want my life to be worth something.I mean,I know it is.But I want something more.Again,I'm not sure what...