Sunday, April 26, 2009

My lesson of the week

This was a devotional-type thing I read earlier this week that really changed my attitude towards certain people and certain ministries. It looks kind of long, but it's really good.

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Selfishness, hypocrisy, and other "people problems" in church can be discouraging. But selfishness and hypocrisy shouldn't drive us away from church involvement. Rather, it should make us aware of how much we all need it!

As children, we grow up in a world governed by adult authority figures who appear all-knowing, just, and wise. But as we approach adulthood, we learn how flawed and imperfect adult authority is. This awareness creates disillusionment, some of it painful. Disillusionment often turns into rebellion. As teenagers, most of us rebel to one degree or another against adults we perceive as arbitrary and unloving.

If we are fortunate enough to have loving parents, we are encouraged to "work through" our rebellion and anger. As we gradually mature into adulthood, we become aware of our own imperfections and conflicting ideals. This awareness of our own imperfection usually has the effect of humbling us, making us more realistic, and changing our rebellion into understanding and forgiveness.

Organizations, whether secular or religious, are made up of imperfect people. As adults we sometimes continue to expect perfection from organizations long after we have stopped expecting it from other individuals or ourselves. But just as teenagers grow into adults,Christians mature in their relationship with Christ. As we mature, we begin to discover how much we owe to God's grace and how little we earn through our own efforts. This makes it easier to see how God is able to use His church, which, like us, can serve as an instrument of divine grace in spite of imperfection and sin.

Sinful individuals or a sinful church can't produce lasting effects for the kingdom of God, but the power of God's Spirit working through them can! ( 2 Corinthians 4:7 ). As Jesus said, "Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance" ( Mark 2:15-17 ). If we were all perfect we wouldn't need the church. It is our imperfection that calls for the purifying process of membership in the body of Christ. Our mission is to love each other ( 1 Peter 4:8 ) in such a way that we gain the spiritual strength that can only be developed in union with other believers ( Ephesians 4:14-16 ).

We shouldn't overlook the hypocrisy and problems that exist in the church. We need to do what we can to confront and deal with them in loving ways. The apostle Paul was probably as aware of hypocrisy and imperfection within the church as anyone who ever lived, yet he wrote:

Bear one another's burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ. For if anyone thinks himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself. But let each one examine his own work, and then he will have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another. For each one shall bear his own load (Galatians 6:2-5).

Sunday, January 25, 2009

=]

Well my family can come to Ireland.For sure now.And we may even still be going to Paris!

Liam and I are booking my flight tomorrow sometime.The rest of the family will eventually.I don't know if they're gonna try book the same one.We'll see....

That's really it.I'm actually kind of glad they're coming.Because then at least for two weeks or so I'll have things to do.Places to go.With people I know.But I'm also glad they're leaving and I can be there by myself for a while.Since that was my plan all along.

But I am glad they get to come.They really wanted it.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Boredom

So I'm sitting at home.Not doing much.I was looking for flights for Ireland this summer.I found them.Now I have nothing to do.lol.

I don't know how much needs to be worked out before I go.Not much to do yet.Considering I don't leave till June.But there's still some details I've been thinking about.Like what I want to pack and what I can just buy once I get there.I think I'll buy a temporary cell phone while I'm there.Like the cheapo one Amanda and I used while I was over there.I need a convertor plug so I can bring my laptop=].I wish I could go longer.But the one month will have to do.It may turn out to be long enough.

Thing is,I really started to enjoy being there once I adjusted to it.I mean,for a while I missed home.Couldn't sleep.I was rather miserable sometimes.But the last 5 or 6 days,I loved it.So I think I just needed to get used to it again.Then I loved it.

Other than that,I'm just trying to focus on graduating.lol.Going well so far.Hope it stays that way.I still have to take the ACT.Keeping my grades up should be fine.I'm  not worried about that.Have to finish that online class ASAP.Get it out of the way.Apply for IRSC.That's all I can think of right now.I'm sure there's more.....

Still got a bit of a cough.Hopefully It'll go soon.It's been over a week now=p


Sunday, December 28, 2008

SARAH!!!

Just wanna say that I'm not gonna miss you one bit.Get out of here already!!!

J/k.. I love you dollbaby!!

I will miss you,but at the same time,I'm not extremely sad.I'm happy for you.Happy that you are finally breaking out of this boring little town and into a great big world where you will do great big things.I'll make sure to send you...idk.lots of chai or something.and if I could send you burger king iced mocha...whatever the heck it is... I would!!and whatever else youre crazy heart desires.

Glad we got to sing together for what will hopefully not be the last time=]

Have fun at Kwanza tonight!Eat some waffles for me!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

So this christmas....

...has sucked so far.Trying to look at the positives.Kinda hard when all thats being thrown at you is negative.Just ready for the holidays to be over.Christmas was my favorite time of year.Ever.Now,its the most miserable.Looking back on all the great times I had with people I loved.Times I can never have again.With people I may never see again.And my whole family is miserable and pissed off and taking it out on me.Making it seem(as always)like everything is my fault.I just want to lock myself in this room until school starts again.Who would have ever thought I would look forward to school more than anything?

Here's hoping it will get better later...To anyone reading.If you're reading.Have a Merry Christmas.Hopefully I can have the same..

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Omg..

This is ridiculous..I'm not gonna allow my so called "friends" to talk down to me like this.I may have deserved some of it,but not that...I may have hurt him,but he hurt me so much more.

How crazy is it that the people around me who aren't christians are more supportive of those who claim to be...

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Holidays..

Holidays are somewhat bittersweet for me.I love the holidays themselves,but I hate what they've become.I hate the way people act around the holidays.The greed,selfishness.Everything.But I suppose there's good and bad to everything...

I can't wait for this summer. I love to travel.I love to just get away from everything.I don't care what anyone says I'm going for as long as I can this summer.Ireland,Paris and London.Belfast too,I suppose.

It was hard for me to be in Ireland without Michaela there.I wonder what it will be like without my uncle..

I keep getting all these end-of-the-year surveys from people.I refuse to answer them.Reminiscing about this past year does not bring me joy.It makes me sick.

I keep saying I can't wait to graduate.But everyone who's out of high school wishes they could go back.So I'm not really sure what I want.

I know I want a change.I want something good to happen instead of all the crap that's been happening.I want my efforts to be worth something. I want my life to be worth something.I mean,I know it is.But I want something more.Again,I'm not sure what...